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NOTHING B/C ITUNES IS POTTERY |
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for some reason i am sad. every song that comes on the radio makes me sad. dallas and nick are graduating (which just kind of added to the pile). i feel sort of detached from my friends. i dont feel a part of them as a group. i dont look forward to anything. every little dissapointment just builds up and look im already crying and im being really general about why im sad. i guess im kind of waiting for something good to happen. which (relative as a connective) hasn't happened in a while. i might be waiting for my edward (both, the guy and the car) to come and sweep me off my feet/let me drive him down the road. i might be waiting to just have fun for a whole day....like that is going to happen...without doing homework. i might be waiting for my scarf that i am knitting to be finished. i might be waiting for the perfect weather to sit outside and read. i dont know. im just waiting, hoping that something will come along and brighten my day for more than just a few minutes.
and i hate being emo...thats what i feel like im doing. but i can't seem to get around to talking to anyone about it so why not just put it out there.....for someone to read but not having to choose who and get up the courage to force my problems on someone else. its wimpy. but at least i know and admit that my way out is wimpy. don't respond if you don't want to. i really just want someone to read. i don't have to know that they did or what they thought. i dont want to force anyone to console me or ask me what is wrong. i just wan....okay im stopping now. this just all sounds retarded. nevermind. whatever. im going to go write my english paper.
damnit now my itunes isnt working. great. just great. (kind of ironic/funny....pisses me off though)
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[17 Sep 2006|10:20pm] |
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this week is going to be crazy.......
monday---bowling, drums
tuesday---robotics, sewing
wednesday---hem blue dress
thursday---speak at conference
friday---convention AWA business
and all these days i have to pack/do homework/practice for band
its not going to be cool.....
tracie what is your phone number????
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[13 Sep 2006|08:45pm] |
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I HATE CALCULATORS....
they are all against me.....
anyways.....ive done like nothing
i worked with the damn calculator, accidentally erased the memory, and lots of other stupid things
now im trying to chemistry
sortof
and apmeh...im screwed
but i do get to go to the love kitchen!!!!
something to look forward to....anyways bye?!?!
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[21 Aug 2006|07:39pm] |
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the rain song - led zeppelin |
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wow everything came crashing down on friday. i forgot stuff to class. i had to go to my dads people in band said i sucked at playing drums. i got my cellphone confiscated. it sucked. but then someone made my day better. he came over, gave me a hug (i by the way had never talked to him really before this), and asked me what was wrong. he made me laugh and made my day better. and all the sudden today i cant seem to grasp my social skills and talk to him. i did once before chapel but.....it didnt go so well. i mean we talked but it was slightly awkward. i just want to be a friend but over the weekend i got all confused and planned out what i should say to be friendly and not weird about it. i screwed everything up.
i need someone to help me with my social skills.
and with my guy problems. i hate being a girl. i hate being friends with girls (no offense but MAN are they backstabbers) and.....i hate nosy guys who somehow figure out things by my use of pronouns!!!!
any advice?
later peeps
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[13 Aug 2006|12:43pm] |
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taking back sunday-louder now |
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yesterday was crazy....
lunch with reyner, alec, and jonathan.....bowling oh yes where i did horribly
then i had five hours to get ready for the dance. i piddled around for a while then i actually got to it. the dance was HORRIBLE but i got to see lots of folks like allison, tori, brie, alex, noelle, lauren (yes im going through them all), rick, thomas, mirco, katie, leigh, patrick, katherine....ok i know there are more but i cant think of them. all i wanted was for the dance to be over. the music was good but not for dancing. hardly anyone did anything but try to grind. it was pitiful.
then afterwards me and my homies rick zack (the new guy) and katie hit up the applebees with my mom and her friends bruce and forrest. forrest is so obnoxious (we didnt want him to come but....we couldnt really say you cant come to him and hurt his feelings either). we had a good time talking about stuff. katie and i about the first day of school--what to wear and school supplies. the boys asked us what was the deal about getting dressed. we said welll.....
shirts-3 colors
skirt or pants
sweater color
nails yes or no
earrings
other jewlery
hair
shoes if you have more than one pair
etc.
they said they were glad to be boys and not girls. i kind of agree. but it is fun. i enjoy the first day of school. then afterwards we get to go school supply shopping and get cool pens notebooks and such. its pretty exciting. anyways im going to go watch star trek and eat lunch.
talk to you later.
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[10 Aug 2006|02:04pm] |
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Make Damn Sure |
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Hi guys how's it going....its been quite a while. I'm trying to do my summer reading to no avail. I can't seem to actually write the essays. I make them too wordy. Or on one I just have a chart. I don't know how to express what I want to say just on one little page. They seem to be limiting us to a primitive and primordial language just to save space. I think two pages should be acceptable based upon the fact that we can use 5 and up letter words. Did anybody read 1984? Probably not. No one read any of the books I did. Man I pick the best ones too *rolls eyes*. Oh well I guess I should get back to what I was doing.
Bye.
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[22 Nov 2005|08:42pm] |
I H ATE BIOLOGY!!!!
HISTORY MADE MY DAY
SHEEPDOGS = TEH COOL AND TEH HOT
DEER=GAY/POTTERY
PANDA= TEH COOL
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[14 Aug 2005|09:19pm] |
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the chanting of the poem with the chanting |
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i like totally found a poem in spear and anvil by eric hultquist....
so i said "hey ok lets read it and see if its good"
i read it
i like it
its pretty good...
and i just found one by jeremy given...now im gonna read that too
im only on the second page and i already have some favorite poems stacking up...*nods*
i should have read this thing a while back...it kind of helps me to understand people, see what they see. its pretty cool
THIS JUST IN...NICK AND HIS BAND RECORDED A SONG
I THINK IT IS THE AMAZING ONE THAT I REALLY LOVE
AND HES SENDING IT TO ME
sweet
later
em
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[12 Aug 2005|02:15pm] |
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damn i wish i was your lover (where did that come from) |
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so allison came over last night
i got my schedule fixed
life as we know it is getting better
but im still bored out of my mind
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[10 Aug 2005|06:57pm] |
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perforate, lapel |
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i hate you, i hate you, i hate you.
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[08 Aug 2005|08:20pm] |
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Dance, Dance
She says she's no good with words but I'm worse
Barely stuttered out
A joke of a romantic stuck to my tongue
And weighed down with words too overdramatic
Tonight it's "it cant get much worse"
Vs. "no one should ever feel like.."
I'm two quarters and a heart down
And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds
These words are all I have so I write them
I need them just to get by
Dance, Dance
We're falling apart to half time
Dance, Dance
And these are the lives you love to lead
Dance, this is the way they'd love
If they knew how misery loved me
You always fold just before you're found out
Drink up its last call
Last resort
But only the first mistake and I...
I'm two quarters and a heart down
And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds
These words are all I have so I write them
I need them just to get by
Why don't you show me a little bit of spine
You've been saving for his mattress, love
Dance, Dance
We're falling apart to half time
Dance, Dance
And these are the lives you love to lead
Dance, this is the way they'd love
If they knew how misery loved me
Why don't you show me a little bit of spine
You've been saving for his mattress (mattress, mattress)
I only want sympathy in the form of you crawling into bed with me
Dance, Dance
We're falling apart to half time
Dance, Dance
And these are the lives you love to lead
Dance this is the way they'd love (way they'd love)
Dance this is the way they'd love (way they'd love)
Dance this is the way they'd love
If they knew how misery loved me
Dance, Dance
Dance, Dance
Dance, Dance
Dance, Dance
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[07 Aug 2005|05:37pm] |
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well i woke up this morning and prepared for paige and rick to come! we visited and ate lunch and stuff. twas nice.
i saw so many freakin people at the mall today. meade, colin, ryan liveasy, sarah (senior), will, susanne, some football player, the blonde dancer girl, and a bunch of other boys that i dont remember who they were.
yeah well theres a nice pointless post for you.
DAILY GOALS:
read
eat dinner
read
exercise
drum/snare
read
bed
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[06 Aug 2005|10:40pm] |
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the academy is... |
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so today i got the "if you ever have sex use a condom" talk from my stepmom. i mean, my mom just says "now i dont want you to have sex but if you do ill still love you."
come on guys...
its me. i know and im not planning on having sex until marraige but hey plans are simply that, just plans. he would have to be a really hot fuzzy with some seriously curly locks(gotta be pretty special).
mr. austin is helping me fix my schedule. score. hopefully it will work out.
for punch: atreyu poster
for dallas: tshirt and flyer
for nick: cd/dvd
THEY DIDNT HAVE A FALL OUT BOY BOOTH. WHAT WERE THEY THINKING.
i got a zippo. yessssssss.
nick called. i get to see him tomorrow!!!
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[04 Aug 2005|08:41am] |
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okay
i got up and ate breakfast drove down to georgia and parked in the parking lot thing for warped tour.
there were so many booths around me i was about to go nuts. i started at one end and made my way around. i planned out my day as to where and when i needed to be.
i saw atreyu. that was a totally bad moshpit. not cool.
I MET FALL OUT BOY.
I MET THE ACADEMY IS...but they wouldn't let us have pictures. my dad said oh really well i can fix that and went and took pictures of them for me. YAY. they are really nice. all of them. both bands.
but i missed both their shows, the academy is because of fall out boy signing. fall out boy because my dad made me leave.
MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE WAS AMAZING. THEY ARE AMAZING LIVE. of course i already knew that but it helps if you actually see it. i also saw motion city soundtrack, bleeding through (by accident), some band i have never heard of, the hanks, relient k, strung out, hawthorne heights (they sucked so much), big d and the kids table (all for you my dallas all for you), and some more bands but i cant think.
i made some new friends too. amanda and ashley. they are the coolest.
there are so many good stories about warped tour but my attention span has been lacking since i got back.
OMG TORI I SAW CHIP THERE. I SWEAR IT WAS HIM. HE WAS SMOKING AND HIS VOICE SOUNDED THE SAME. IT WAS CHIP. anyway...
well i gotta go. time to be hyper.
later,
me
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[02 Aug 2005|06:48pm] |
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taco bell |
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warped tour tomorrow...
wootwoot
got back from florida yesterday.
i already miss fabio. *tear* *sings* arabian nights and arabian days....
of course i miss zack and "matt" and that cool guy on the spiderman ride too, i am just a player
ahhahah i love doughnuts. shane is so cool. he is my new best friend and brother.
OMG IM GOING TO SEE FALL OUT BOY. I HAVE TO GET UP AT LIKE 5 AND YEAH IM GONNA DIE.
later man.
me
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[27 Jul 2005|11:28pm] |
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went to the movies with danielle, stephanie, lane and megan
it was totally fun. met some person named mark. he is cool.
RED EYE AUGUST 19TH
whos going?
ME
warped tour?
whos going?
ME
who's getting dallas a really big present?
ME
and calling him?
ME
DAMN IM GOOD
YEHAWW
i am high on life.
later,
em
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[26 Jul 2005|01:06pm] |
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theme from matlock |
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i absolutely love school supplies
that is what makes life worth living right now
SCHOOOL SUPPLIES
i love them
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[25 Jul 2005|11:03pm] |
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talked to thomas today for a long time on the phone,
went to a movie with allison,
talked about SCHOOL SUPPLIES
and that made me happy for a bit
but now the thrill is over and im back to missing stupid kentucky peoples
i didnt even get to say goodbye to dallas
i drummed today too...whatever
i am going to fly to florida on thursday
JOY TO MY FUCKING LIFE with a nine year old and a little baby (children of the couple we are going with)
so call me after i get back which i will know by tomorrow when that will be
if you want to
i want floating candles in my pool
later,
me
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[24 Jul 2005|10:26pm] |
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fo da shoties |
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last night we were supposed to go to dallas's but we didnt
so im not going to see him or the holts or any of them for six months
SIX WHOLE MONTHS
im going to die
im already getting the prerequisites for the application
anyway,
time scales almost mastered
me
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